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oh god is erious;y can not wait until these next two weeks come to an end ok well really im just waiting for this week to be over because im so doen with college well at least for this semester because this semester has just been way to fuckign stressful for me i just want to get it done and out oft he way with because i cant deal with anymore work an di cant deal with any more stress i cant deal anymore and im just exicted for all of this shit to come to a hault because now i get to move on and fix relax and change evrythign i need to so that i could be completley prpepared for my enxt semester which im planning to shine and do the best that i can and not be as ssad and conflicvted as i am in this current semester...sdo pelase let this week just fly by because im done dealingw ith this crap ///yay no more college well at least its a two week break and thats all i fucking need!!!!!!!!

My math teacher kind of pissed me of I swear im so back and forth with this professor we are at such odds sometimes today was our last official day og class and we have our final and exit exam which is going to be on wednesday so he made sure to have like a review day for us today the only problem is all he really did was just scream out question we would have under a minute to do it and then he would tell us the answer the only problem I had with this was we would get confused because there was no visual aid or step by step thing and when we asked him to do it he wouldntbecause all he did was sit his lazy ass down this fustrated me bc number one I don't get math and I needed him to show me a couple things I didn't understand so I would be prepared for my math final but it was some practcie just wish he would have been less lazy and actually got up out his chair and showed us step by step I would have really appreciated the help but oh well I guess its up to me know to pass tha exit exam I just have to study remember and be confident and take my time and not get nervous

Wish me luck and cross your fingers im going to need the luck

So tonight was the concert that I went to you know it was a very small local show in side of a very small venue called churchills pub now I've never been to this pub before but for once I was actually able to find a place without getting to lost even though im defiantly guilty of asking a gas station I was at for extra directions but none the less I got there with great timing really early for the show actually so I got a lot of time to spend tonight to have fun and enjoy myself and that's exactly what I did.I was reallty damn happy that I got to spend the most of the day with julius and also hanging out with naty and the rest of the band(gaby,jackie,chris and victor) and also chris medina who I haven't seen in like fucking ages but it was all good and fun times being able to hang out and spend time with everyone that was really amaing as hell so happy to have been able to see everyone and catch up.now time to get to the bands.

The first band that played was the gist they were four guys playing some really chilled out fun piop rock songs I really enjoyed there set they had a lot of energy and it was just really well done pop rock there basist had crazy energy he was all over the floor and they were really nice guys with a really solid sound and performance

One 21 were upnext I didn't like this band all that much at all they were a messy punk band with yell almost scream vocals but not really screaming more yelling but his voice was so ugly especially when he sung so so ugly but there instrumentals were fukien amaing as hell they shredded so damn good they has amazing instruments I just can't say that enough times all they need is a better vocalist but once they get one they'll be pretty damn good

Unarmed for victory followed one 21 now I hated unarmed for victory they were the worst performance of the night and I didn't like them at all it really bothered my ears to here how bad of musciacinahsip they had it was so bad that I think im going to give them an award for "being the worse scene shit peace of crappola band ever" I hated them the instruments were so typical and the guys screaming and inhaling was gross as fuck I've never heard such a bad vocalist not to mention I hated there self proclaimed "sceneness"

Flavios band was wonderful my favorite performance of the night by far and the one htat sounded the strongest to me at least there vocalist was hispanic and sung in a spanish language as in no english he sounded amazing his voice was really seductive and shit he can shred the fuck out of a guitar and there keyboardist was really godly also they played like this nice smoot jazz alt rock but all in spanish s fucking amazing.<3.I really dug them and they're style so much swag and passion in their music

Light the skyz they are my friends all of them really good friends of mine mainly julius and danny and victor(went to skool with) and chris(sis man friend) and jackie is always cool but this is the first time that I got to meet there screamer which they newly incorporated his name is gabriel he was and seemed like a nice kid he's really young though but anywho I've know them for a very long time ever since they use to play as no outlet and the have done tons of improving on there sound and there getten better and better as they go on. I really enjoyed there performance I was taking photos a lot of he time but its all good jackie moved chris moved julius killed it victor was good gabrielle was insane and danny good as usual and they performed so much better this time thn previously ebfore when I saw them and there new songs they wrote are amusing to listen to...anywho they were the headliners of the night or at least they were suppose to be...until some shaddy shit went down.

Shady shit: so after flavios band performed the guy who owns the club pulled danny aside and said hey u should goafter flavio because the other band playing is a reggae band and the crowd is gonna hate them nd everyone is going to leave so danny said fine and performed after flavios band now back to the future.

So after light the skyz finished performing there good performance the regae band stampede took the stage and they fucking murdered it rap reggae music that you here at carnival and the crowd loved them and it seemed as though they played there several times before which I found later on that they are regualrs and they weren't even on the roster but they were allowed to bc of special treatment which if ound ridiculous because of this danny felt heart broken and was really down(ill get to this later) but I liked the reggae band either way because they were cool and funky and it was fun but I didntvote or like them all that much.

So I saw danny really sad and I pulled im over to tell him dotn worry you guys have this and just to relax and let the votes happen how they happen and he asked me if I thought they could get a record deal I said yea(im not a dream crusher) and if he wants to get signed and he works hard I can see it being able to happen plus I've heard shitty ass bands being signed and dannys band is actually good and developing further even though they still have a very long long way to go and they need ot take it slow but anywho ...all the friends of danny and ppl supporting llight the skyz left b4 the reggae band played and thus light the skyz lost tons of votes because the only people left during stampede(the reggae band) was me danny ellie naty and jackie and her man (thus he felt even worse he thinks this would be his only shot) but then when voting was about to happen the club announced that another band was taking the stage its about 11 45(at this time my curfew is 12 and I had school and papers needed to be done) so I told danny I had to leave but before we all screamed and yelled for light the skyz so the guy new that we were there for light the skyz and I left and thank god everything ended well .

Because light the skyz has gotten 2nd place and they will be moving on to the next battle of the bands show because they got 2nd .yay!!!!!!! So happy for them

Random occurances at the show.
* some guy randomly came up to me and asked me if I wanted any xanax? I told him no and was on my way
*at the gas station as I left some gay like cursed this due out for looking at me strangely...idk
*during stampede the same xanax guy pulled out weed and passed it around to all these random ppl
*this one slut tried weed for the first time and she was wasted and her face was so funny watching her do weed so damn funny.
*I kept away from all crap that went down bc as we know im drug free and not stupid

Psycholgy class has now come to an end very early this morning ...early this morning I took my final exam in my psychology class now I didn't get a chance to study and had no study guide but thank god that I did get fairly lucky and a really nice couple of classmates leant me there notes before class I got to class extremely early so I can see if I can find soemone to study with and thank god I found a lot of people willing to lend me there notes and study with me...thank god

So I went and spoke with them and study a good amount before the exam and on top of that I knew and remembered a lot of it since I went and took it as a class in highschool and I had a really good teacher .so I took the test and oi think I did really well I know that I definetly passed and got hire than a 75 which is all I need since I got a 100 on the other exam and aced the only paper that we had to do ...so in the end I passed my first college class and that was psychology.

I would like to say a few things about my professor seth beck " he is an absolutely amazing professor he comes into class with a huge smile on his face wich made the class go by so much faster, he knows his subject and loves to communicate with his students and uses his own personal stories to help teach.he's a wonderful man and professor I really learned and he made it go by so fast and I appreciate him for his efforts." All in all I love my psychology class and I had a great proffesor and friend in professor beck seth

so this week is the start of a very hectic week i have tons of projects to do and finish and then i have many papers to write and present and let sjust say that i have four finals tyhis week that i need to take and get out of myw ay but after this weeke everythign will be alld amn good and i wont have any trouble with other classes and shit and everythign will be doen and i can finally take a break from school and all of this stress and get back to my friends and my hobbies which ive been neglecting not on purpose at all of course btu i defiently do need to get all of my work doen and shit and just get everything done now than later and what nto and ill be back in full swing next week hopefully....cross finegrs and wsh me luck guys because im gonna really need it .

oh ive been really mia also for the last two weekes because my cell phone isnt workign again it was working decently well last week btu once this weekened hit my phone stopped workinga nd is currently dead and without any conenction or service so i need to send my phone back to t mobile so that they can fix it so i dont have to deal with this problem anymore because i cant keep on with a phoen that i cannot reallly on ...so im sorry everyone for not answerign the text and what not but my phones not working agin be patient ill hopefullu have it up and wrking again very soon or so i hope.

i did my speech in speech class today we had to present a persuasive speech and alot of the speeches have been bad and not up to his expectations well at least the first bach i did mine on pro same sex marriage and i think i really rocked it out nad persuaded ppl i got alot of cmmments back very positive from soem of my pears but my teacher hated the topic(homophobe) so he gave me a 90 using the excuse " no use of statistica data)" mya ss i used tons of stats but whatevr its fine at least i passed and im happy about that .

so this is just a small update for this week i wotn be on much unless my phone gets fixed soem time soon but i have art and theatre and math finals taht i need to study for and pass for this week.

this is almost aboslutely imposssible for me to answer since i love and get addicted to so many damn songs and i fall in love quickly with quit alot of songs and bands so this is defiently goign to be a challenge for me to write a top ten favorite songs list sicne alot of the music i listent o is very diverse and very different so its hard to just make one huge list with all my favoirte songs on it but ill try and do it none the elss so ehre is my attempt at my top ten favorite songs.

1. made to disapear by the twilight sad
2.the cure by tegan and sara
3.maps by yeah yeah yeahs
4.8th wonder by gossip
5.post cards by an horse
6.iys lighting its thundering by we were promised jet packs
7.soft shock by yeah yeah yeahs
8.the con by tegan and sara
9.i became a prostitute by the twilight sad
10.??????? its a mystery

j rock playlist

1.squall by despa
2.kodou by dir en grey
3.additional cause for sorrow by dead man
4.sink by 9goatsblackout
5.liquid by exist trace
6.sayonara no hate by saddie
7.gliter torupon by ayabie
8.owari to mirai by giru
9.?????? to many to name and think of
10.??????

anywho its almost impossibel to name favoritres those are just tosn of the bands that i tend to listen to alot more than the other artist but i have so many favortes its actually pretty ridiculous i just love msuic and teh bands that play them i want to give a shout out to passion pit and florence and the machine also because they are amaing.omg wait ill make one more playlist of my current plyalist on my zuen is the above are just liek my favorite songs on planet earth hers the current recent playlist on my zune since this morning.

1.we are water by HEALTH
2.teh walls are comign down by Fanfarlo
3.roll up your sleeves by we were promised jet packs
4.death to los campesinos by los campesinos
5.and the hazy sea by cymbals eat guitars
6.made to disapear by the twilight sad
7.sleepyhead by passion pit
8.pop the glock by uffie
9.salt peppa and spidnerella by johnny foreigner
10.lets go surfing by the drums

So I was walking on miami beach last night with my supposed "family" and as we were walking I was talking with ingrid one of the few family mebers I like well at least when she's not being a pain in the ass but anywho my mom loves to be noisy and get into other peoples bussiness because that's what she does and she's like oh why don't you leave? Im like what? Leave for college she said im like well you wouldn't let me ember and then she's like oh why don't you just go to college in canada in which she wouldn't have to pay as much money because school in canada is a million times cheaper and then she's like I would rather send you to school in canada then you being here with me because your way to expensive when you are here....

Beyond the fast that this conversation came out of no where and eally didn't care to ehar her and understand what nonsence she was spitting out of her mouth it came around to the fact that shell support me if I go to canada......this is something that is very risky for me to do but im looking at this as an opportunity none the less she said after I get my AA shell send me to canada to study no strings attached now I don't wantto get excited for this because I know my mom loves going back on her word a lot so im not trusting herbut if I was honestly able to go and study in canada I will.

If she's honest about this then im going to take this opportunity and move to canada alone and start my schooling over there because I like canada and I think it will give me the opportunities in life that I don't have when im in miami because when im in miami I am a total prisoner to my mother in canada ill be free to study and do whatever it is my little hearty desires so im definetly going to take advantage of canada.I mean if I move toc anded I will be in a place in which I can study what I want, meet new people, be in a new enviorment, actually go and see bands I like and film festivals...omg and the wether plus it will be a different enviorment for me to be in and if this opportunity is for real I have to take it

So im feeling really happy and even though the eveil downer cloud still reigns over my head showering on all of my parade im still able to be extremely6 happy and excited for a friend of mine because what she's doing right now is kind of in a sence what I've always wanted to do ...so my friend arlene has always ever since I met her like two or three years ago has always wanted to be a band promoter and work to help promote and become a band mangaer and she has worked long and hard to get to this point and im happy to say that its becoming a reality for her she's finally getting the chance for her to live out her dreams.

She's going on tour this summer with andrew home sweet and electro club dh type driend of hers and she's currently promoting and managing him and a few other bands also so she's definetly going to be living out her dreams with this she getting her new site up for the bands and shell be heading on tour with them around the us...this is going to be so damn amazing for her in everu damn way its just so damn amazing I love that thesis happening to her because she deserves it and im so happy that at least one of us has the ability to follow her dreams.

See I've always wanted to follow my dreams and I have some pretty big dreams that I would love to achieve but sadly I won't ever be able to achieve my dreams and this maks me utterly sad and disappointed in every way because my "parents" won't support me through college if I don't go into the field they choose and if I don't do the classes thye won't me to...so ill just have to live with that sadness and anxiety and the grief for never being able to get to my dreams.I wish my parents would open there eyes for once and see the pain turmoil and trouble that they are causing me but this will soon chnage if my plan works

So I over heard my sister talking with her boyfriend because he wanted her to go out well knowing that she was grounded and he told her that's the problem you never try and communicate with your mom he said if you spoke to her im sure you'll guys would get along and be on the same page and my sister was laughing and I couldn't help but chuckle myself and then my sister gave him a definition of our household and family:

"We don't like each other,don't care for each other, were not emotional people and we could give less of a fuck about what happens to each other"

Hmmmm I thought to myself yea this does sound like the people in my household we are all just little fucking puppets to my mother were all dolls thta she gladly likes to fuck around with by taking advantage and making ud feel like shit she feeds of this its like her life force and we are unhappy and struggling it makes her extremely happy and she enjoys watching us in pain fucking sadomasochist I can't stand her or my step dad there not even parents whatso ever and its sad that that's how my amily is no one really likes each other and we try to stay as far away from each other especially me I try to stay as far away as possible from the majority of my family because im scared and worried for myself when im around these kind of people.

Feeling like utter shit this early in the morning yea today is the day that I take my psychology final which im a little bit stressed about since like forever but I woke up today feeling decent like I felt fairly good and was ready to try my best in this exam and of course I was nervous because there is a lot riding on this exam so I woke up today took a quick shower tied my hair up and threw it in a hat this simple little thing me wetting my hair and tying it up and wearing a hat like completely set of "my parents" and they started double teaming on me bitching and complaining bc my hair looks like a mess under my hat and there bitching and both of them screaming at there loudest and I was getting stressed annoyed bc they kept yelling and screaming at me at the top of there lungs complaining how I dress gor class and how they are gonna shave my head bald and all of this and that and all of this shit and crap and they kept bitching even when I told them I had to leave early they kept going stronger and stronger just yelling there lungs out and im over there stressing out.

I don't need people yelling at me and threatening me this early in the morning especially on a day that I have a very important exam such as my psych final which "my step dad" tooke my shirt out of my room and washed it for no apparent reason and he washed my study guide with it so I didn't even get to study for psych im just hoping I remember what I learned at pave and someone who is kind hearted enough lets me look at there studyguide for a few seconds just to get an idea to run with...but I don't see why someone needs to bitch me out so early and before is have to take an important exam they do this all the time they stress me out when they know I have soemthing important to do because its no mystery to anyone how easily stressed I can get and when im stressed im also doubtful anxious and angry all at once oh and frantic and its screws me over...

God I fucking can't stand them

so im goign to check out a concert this weekened no it is not a big band nor is it any band that i really liek ro have a thing for nor is it really a band i enjoy or a musical style that i enjoy either im goign to this concert for one reason and one reason only because its a band of a freaiends(julius and dannys band ) so i was kind of guilt tripped into goign to this concert on sunday so i guess im stuck goign im fine with this but im beyond scared that all its gonna be is generic screamy shit which will drive me insane as hell but oh well im goign to support julius and thats pretty mcuh the only reason im goign plsu this band has me workign on there myspace and there giving me gigs and shit so im going to support only for light the skys(no outlet old name much better)

fromw hat ive been told sunday 6-whenver 8 dolalr tickets at soem irish pub place called churchill(never been tot his plavce so no idea what to expect from ths gig) but i was able to pul;l up a poster and ima check otu these bands playing .

Flavios band(couldnt find them)
guillotin(wow this soudned horrible like country bad attemt at folk)
andrew sansac(best soudning one so far hes ok)
light the skyz(im supporting)
unarmed for victory(i hate ppl liek this there such douchebags look at there myspace and they soudn liek screamy anbnoyign scene shit)
the gist(ths soudned really bad also)
one-21(coudlnt find it)
agent mercy(couldnt find it)
routine scheme(a bad version of aiden esque punk)

ok so this week i need to get soem serious work done and i know i really wotn be havign much of a weekened t all because i need to focus on mys chool work and all of that shit an dmake sure that everythign gets doen and out of the way because i need some serious time and focus and quiet to work on alot of shit that i have been totally behind but alot of stuff seems to be due in my last few wweeeks of schoola nd shit and i need to take soem serious tiem for all og this shit :

tomorrow i have my psychology final so i need to get prepared for it
monday i have to turn in and present a speech and a report for my speech class i decided to do my persuasive speech on gay marriage becaus ei know alot about this topic
tuesday i get to get my take home final from my speech class and also turn in a extra cedit paper
wednesday i take my exit exam for math which im nervous about but i hope i pass
friday i have tog o and present a report and speech for my art class

*for one im really happya nd excited tahts chool is coming o a close well at least for this semester because i have been having a really tough time with this semester andf tehres just been alot of shit going on taht really did throw my concentratoion and focus of off school and i havent really been dong the greatest this esemester so im just happy that its doen and out of my way and in my past no more need for this nonsence
*next quarter is going to be rough with teh cours elaod and course work but i have a feeling taht ioll be able to get through it as long as i am focuisng on my studies and veerything lets up on me and im bsle to feel comfotable and confidenta gain which ill work on over teh winter break becaus ethat is all i really need at this current moment in time so im happy that shcool is over and christmas is on teh way
*hopefully i have a good chritmas for once im not a big fan of holidays you can say im a debbie downer in taht manner i odont think tehre teh happiest of tiems for me but im planning to make teh best ofut of this christmas ill just try and enjoy it and get and take as much adavantage of this break as i possibly can because i seriously do need to take this break
*ive been crashjing nasty latelt io know is because i habvent beemn sleeping good at all and i kow for a fact that i am also always very iverwgeknmeed with school and my fanmily and it has becopme really hard for me to keep up with all that shit but oh well at lea st alor of stress will be of my shoulders qwich is always a nice things
*i have big plans in mind for the new year
*i have tons of projects papers and all that shit to do for the next week because all fo myc lasses are comign to an end thank jesus^^

ugh i hate having to leave for chool so damne arly i like my nigth clasdses better i hate wakign up so early just to have to rush to class becuse i live 30 minutes away froms chool .ugh what a pain in the ass i just want this semester to end already i really dont care to g to school today but i have to because of stupid art history(one of my most hated classes bevause the professor is hella boring) i really hate the professor hes a fuckign SNORE FEST he drives me isnane with how boring he is hes the single boringest person ive ever come acrsoss omg he needs to stop teaching so borign and the ppl in my class are whack no fun whatsoever cant wait for ythis class to end...

so there has been tons and tons of drama surrounding mys chool schedule for the winetr semester of 2010 tons and tons of drama from my first scheduel being deleted my mom goign psycho pickign whatever classes she wanted me to take from me fighting than and us agreeign on a schedule just for her to turno n me and change my classes and then gives me even more classes to take which pissed me of but have given up on fighting this battle becaus ei know next year ill be back on my regular confidence and my normall state taht i am with schoolin which im actuallyr eally good and stronga at school and now im getting very use to bc so im ready for whatever bull shit there goign to throw at me but still my course load is to much and ther enot the easiest of classes ...

heres my schedule:

Business Law
English
Enviormental science
Health:total wellness
International Relations
Literature of science fiction

this is goign to be tons fo work and i know its goign to be alot and im goign to get stressed out eventually buti knwo that i defiently want to give it my all and i edd to be on top of my game this tiem aorund so i can hit everything on the head and pass this heavy coarse load which im not happy with but im goign to deal withit and make the best that i possibly canw ith it.

oh man its so crazy trying to look back how longa go that was i was very late on the whoel internet thing i wasnt a big internet user when i was much younger but i guess aroudn 5th grade is when i started using computers to cose and wreck all kinds of mischeif but i guess when i went into fith grade i got into alot of my already current hobbies i got into them alot heavier i rember looking up really early aniem stuff liek ranma 1/2 and then i use to listen tyo some songs ont he omputer than my cousinshowed me how to get and stuff...nto much but now im liek a internet addict(i still dont liek computers bc im anti machines bc they never work for me its a curse) but anywhoo now in days its manga networking anime scans doujin music youtube forums all tyhat jaz

wow, i have just noticed how completely helpless i am when it comes to manga its not even funny it hink this is very sad but oh so entertainng for me.....ive coem to the conclusion that its impossible impossible for me to make a list of manga because im not even kidding you ive just noticed that im almost interested in every single manga and am willing to read any single manga and i have problems decidng on which manga to buy because they all look and sound liek soemthing that would interest me ...lol..ugh i hate makign list its so impossible for me to choose anything but im stil workign on it at the moment ill be postign what i find for x mas and what ill be buying verysoon....if i can ever shorten the damn list ....lol

so ive been dieing to post about this awsome new band that i foudn earlier this week well on the indie blogosphere there has been alot of talk and praise for this band called HEALTH so i wanted to check out all th ebuzz because teh inide scene defienlty loves hyping up its bands alot of the tiem to some disapointment but not with this band at all they absolutley deserve all of the hype taht ive heard fromt hsi band they are fucking amazing amazing amazing they are really great dancey noise punk band there soudn is so full and epic and i can see myself like at tehre show just dancing so fucking hard to this band liek harder then ive ever danced there amaing as hell and i love how they take a different approach to noise tehn bands like no age and wavves(dont get wme wrong i love both no age and wavves (no age mroe)) . so anywho they have a really intense live performance which im goign to show you them performing we are water(my favorite track of there most recent album) and i cant wait till they liek eventually travel and perform in miami hopefully(im crossing my finegrs as usual).

anyways besides all my negative little morning things are quieting down sicne everyone eft and im home alone..thank god now i get to have soem fun and enjoy the rest of my day as much as my little heart wntass to today i dont have much planned at all i was gonna go see the fantastic mr fox but ill just go and watch it on friday not a biggie and so today is bme getting the rest tahtw as tsolen from me, watching the new episode of bones, catching up on alot of the anime iw as watching letter bee i have my eyes on you adn sasameki koto ...oh and im making my chritmas list ytody and im going to be relentless as my sister as with her list ^^ have fun santa picking up all this shit anywho besides that im goignt o listen to fanfrlo and healtha nd teh twilight sad all damn day liek i have been for the last couple of days....

today is for relaxinga t least the rest of the day now that the danger squead left.